I think I may have provisionally decided to be a Christian. It boils down to this: I don’t prefer any of the other choices. I’m certainly not going to choose a different religion over Christianity. I’m also not satisfied with being nonreligious, irreligious, or just throwing up my hands and saying “I don’t know!” I don’t want to be an atheist, so I don’t have to be one.
This realization might not be an entirely logical one, but I am not Mister Spock. I am simply not governed entirely by logic, and I am not willing to govern myself entirely by logic, because I am not happy, satisfied, or fulfilled by so doing. Nor do I believe that anyone is driven entirely by logic and reason. I’m not saying that logic and reason are unimportant or irrelevant, just that they’re not the only factor that comes into the calculus.
Given all of that, the simple fact is that I like Christianity best. Given the choice, I pick Jesus. I am comfortable with Christianity, I find it culturally relevant, and I find it good. Christianity is the standard by which I judge other religions… and so I shouldn’t be surprised when I pick Christianity. At least I’m recognizing that the game was rigged from the start and acknowledging the answer I was ultimately going to come to anyway.
It’s like Wolverine, you see. Of all Marvel superheroes, I like Wolvering best. Whenever I play a Marvel Universe RPG, or HeroClix, or X-Men Legends on my GameCube, I pretty much always play Wolverine. If I don’t, I’m sad because I’m playing the wrong character. I like all of the other superheroes, too, but I’ve liked Wolverine the best since I was eleven years old. I’m always going to like Wolverine best, and admitting that was a big step for me. I know that he’s kind of a caricature, and he’s in every Marvel comic now, even Avengers, and it borders on ridiculous, and everyone likes Wolverine so it’s not cool to like Wolverine, but all of that doesn’t seem to matter much. The fact is, picking a different superhero to play means not-picking Wolverine, and that’s not going to happen.
Christianity’s like that. Other religions, belief systems, etc. are fine and good, and there’s a lot of genuine truth out there that’s worth finding, studying, and grabbing hold of (and not just paying lip service to, “truth everywhere, blah blah”). But I’m not going to not-pick Christianity, so the sooner I face that and get on with things, the better.
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