Afetr a talk with my beautiful and sexy wife last night, I think the time has come for me to make some kind of decision. It doesn’t have to be a decision for life or anything, but right now I’m spinning my wheels intellectually/analytically and getting nowhere but more frustrated. Like I said earlier, I think I’m at the point where I’ve pretty much talked myself out of everything, but yet I still have a longing for something.
I don’t think I’m going to get anywhere else on my own, so I need to pick a path, at least to try it out and see if it works for me exerientially- or specifically if it can experientially fill the analytical holes that I have poked in pretty much everything.
I’m indecisive though, between two paths: Druidry and Christianity. I realize that there is some precedent for Christian Druidry, but I’m not sure that’s exactly what I’m looking for.
Anyway, I have concerns with both. Not the least of which is that with either one, I will get caught up in it and decide that it’s Right, but for the wrong reasons.
I have discussed my concerns with Christianity at length elsewhere, so I won’t do it again here. I should probably discuss my concerns with Druidry, but I don’t have time right now- I have to go to class. So, expect more later.
Alternately, I suppose, I could just continue down this path of meditation, appreciate it for what it is, and see where it takes me.
Sailing to Byzantium 
I wish you the best with your journey. Of course, as a Christian, I hope you come to find the amazing gift of God’s grace through Christ. I will keep your struggle in our family’s prayers. May God bless and keep you.
J. Kaiser
Thanks; I appreciate it.
Mind If I ask a somewhat personal question? I think you said in another post your wife was a Christian believer. Did she come to know Christ before or after you were married? I am just curious since I know few couples who married outside their beliefs (I am not counting Catholic-Protestant couples)- such circumstances usually result from later changes.
When we married, we were both Mormons. Since then, we have left the Church. She has retained her belief in Christ, whereas I’ve been struggling a bit.
Hi Kullervo,
This is a general response to the last couple of days of postings.
If you want to encounter Jesus, follow paths that he says lead to him. If you want to encounter Spirits, then follow paths that they say lead to themselves. I can guarantee that you will meet some one along either path, but don’t expect to meet either on the wrong path.
Have you checked out Brian McLaren’s book “A Search for What Is Real: Finding Faith”? Just curious since you go to his church. I don’t know much about it.
Dando,
don’t expect to meet either on the wrong path
Simple wisdom is sometimes the most easily forgotten, particularly in times of stress. Excellent comment.
Kullervo,
The Bible is clear that we have to give an account for every lie we’ve ever told, every time we’ve taken God’s name in vain, and all the women we’ve looked at with lust, (and that’s only three of the ten commandments). I know that I’m guilty of all of those, and I’m going to stand before God as a liar, a blasphemer, and an adulterer at heart.
Every religion except Christianity says you can do enough good stuff to make up for your sins. That doesn’t work in front of a human judge. If you’re guilty of a serious crime, washing the judge’s car or mowing his lawn is not going to help. In fact, it’s bribery, and it’s going to be added to the list of things for which you need to be punished.
Christianity is the only one that says you are evil, but Jesus died for you anyway. You can’t earn God’s favor; it’s a gift. But, you have to repent, and put your faith in Jesus. So, I guess the question you have to answer is: what are you going to do about your sins?
Thanks,
Bill