In a previous post I talked about my troubles with boxed religion. My conclusions were somewhat contradictory, but I think they boil down to this: I want to feel like what I am doing is valid and legitimate, and I want some kind of structure to help me know how to practice my spirituality. I hunger for the divine in a way that necessitates some action, some drawing closer on my part. Navel-gazing and thinkin’ ’bout gods by itself just isn’t going to do the trick–I need a practical element to my spirituality.
So the question becomes, how do I get those things–practical spirituality and a feeling of legitimacy and validity–without also having to deal with the suffocation, claustrophobia, mental revision, and inevitable shame and embarassment that seem to be inescapable by-products of boxed religion.
One thing I know for relatively certain, is that my personal theology doesn’t appear to match any currently existing and widespread theology, so no complete boxed religion will do–no matter which one I pick I will wind up feeling the need to change what I believe in order ot be orthodox. I know I shouldn’t, but that’s not the issue. I will. So then, where do I get the things I am craving out of religion? How do I practice a religion that’s out of the box but still stay focused, on track (even if the track meanders and changes), and maybe most importantly for me, feels valid and legitimate?
One possible route that I have been seriously considering is the Ancient Order of Druids in America. The AODA’s spiritual practices don’t involve a specific theology, although they have theological implications: they are earth-centered, they skew strongly towards some kind of (neo)pagan approach, they are meditative and contemplative, and they tend to favor some ostensibly new age stuff like magic, divination, etcetera. There appears to be a strong tendency toward Celtic paganism (no surprise there; we’re talking Druidry after all), but with an openness to different “flavors,” even if it means going (shudder) eclectic.
The thing is, I have been interested in the AODA for a long time, but I have recognized that it onvolves in some ways a spiritual skeleton, a kind of box with nothing in it. While I have no doubt that you could practice Revival Druidry without any further theological baggage, and int he process develop a strong earth-centered green spirituality of your own, I have always felt that I wanted something more to fill the box with. I wanted some kind of mystical component, a catalyst even, that had specific theological and spiritual implications to flesh out the practical skeleton of the AODA’s approach. From that perspective, I have everything I need to begin. Granted, it still means cobbling things together a bit, and I admit that the spiritual experiences I have had do not necessarily point directly toward Druidry (it’s not even one of the implications I mentioned in my last post). At the same time, Revival Druidry is completely compatible with what I have been doing so far.
So I want to go through a list of advantages and disadvantages of choosing Revival Druidry as a spiritual path. I will start with the advantages.
First, Druidry is green. It is earth-centered. It is a spiritual practice that recognizes the power of the earth, has roots in the living earth, and draws strength form protecting nature and the environment. I haven’t necessarily shared this before, but I have long felt a spiritual connection to the earth. I feel recharged (and less crazy) by being outside. I think there is wisdom and balance to be gained by being more connected to the natural world, and that is an aspect of spiritual existence that I feel compelled to explore. Maybe I will go into more detail in a future post, but suffice it to say for now that this is important enough for me to make it actually be a big problem with Hellenic Recon Polytheism, which is not connected ot the earth enough for my tastes.
Second, Druidry provides a box, but not a claustrophobic one. Even though the kind of Druidry I want to practice is connected to an organization, the organization does not claim special authority to dictate to me what I should and should not be doing, and what is acceptable for me to practice. The is partly due to a general neopagan norm of live and let live, but it also has specific roots for the AODA in Anglican latitudinarianism, as the AODA’s historical roots go back not to ancient druids, but openly and honestly back to the Druid revivalists of several centuries ago, most of whom started out as Anglicans in the midst of a growing trend toward Latitudinarianism–an allowance within Anglicanism to admit diverse theologies but come together in practice. So Revival Druidry provides direction but is not forceful. And the Anglican connection, which comes out in a lot of other practices, especially in the AODA’s meditative approach, doesn’t make me cry either.
Third, as a kind of corollary to the second above, Revival Druidry is a big enough box to contain all of the disparate spiritual elements I have swirling around in my head and heart. It certainly can accomodate all of the different kinds of western mythology that I feel drawn towards–Greek, Celtic, and Norse. In fact, it is a context that will allow me to move around and through those three diffferent mythic and polytheistic contexts as my personal theology continues to grow, develop, and solidify. (Hmm–three is a number that is significant and sacred in Druidry) Druidry is also definitely expansive enough to encomepass a cosmology that is based on the Baghavad Gita. But better still, Revival Druidry’s box is big enough to account for all of the different possible ramifications of my spiritual experiences. Revival Druidry is compatible with a green, mystical Anglican Christianity if that’s where I ultimately end up (and if I end up Christian, I highly suspect that that’s the kind of Christian I will be), and certainly with the male/female archetypical divinities that I might be dealing with (DruidCraft–the fusion of Revival Druidry and Wicca–is already fairly established and has a major advicate in the form of Philip Carr-Gomm, one of the most important voices in modern Druidry and the head of the British Order of Bards, Ovates, and Druids). Moreover, practicing Revival Druidry in no way excludes the practices that have so far become important in my paganism: prayer, libations, and small sacrifices to the gods.
Fourth, Revival Druidry practice involves things I want to be doing anyway. Seasonal celebrations, meditation, poetry, music, divination. It wraps all of these together in a whole, centers it all on environmental spirituality, and interlaces the whole thing with a healthy respect for the gods and a default polytheistic worldview. There’s a lot of good juju in that box, really. I might be on to something here after all.
On the other hand, I have some concerns with the AODA as an organization and with Revival Druidry as practice that I feel I need to address and think about.
First, the AODA is an organization that is in the process of rebuilding. There are not a lot of members, and that means not a lot of community support. The flip side to this is that it being a part of the movement means being able to help build something with a lot of great potential. A connected oncern is the place of John Michael Greer at the head of the organization. Don’t get me wrong-I think Greer is absolutely awesome, a prophetic voice who deserves more attention than he gets. But is the AODA just Greer’s fan club, or can it be an organization that stands on his two feet without him? The AODA’s not a personality cult, and Greer doesn’t really play that part, but is it basically the same thing for practical purposes? Of course, on the other hand, practicing AODA-style Revival Druidry doesn’t actually mean I have to be a part of any organization whatsoever, so the organizational concerns may be a moot point.
Second, I don’t know how comfortable I actually am with the idea of calling myself a “druid.” I am convinced by Greer’s rationale that, as descendants of the Druid Revival, modern Druids have every right to claim the name–not because they are descended from ancient paleopagan Druids, but because they are descended from mesopagan revivalists who called themselves “Druids.” The term Druid has been used to refer to revivalists for three hundred years now, and (in Greer’s words) it is easier than calling the movement “British Universalist Post-Anglican Latitudinarian Pantheist Neo-Pythagorean Nature Spirituality.” Nevertheless, the idea of calling myself a Druid seems, well, kind of silly. Again, maybe I am making a mountain out of a molehill. I am in charge of how I label myself, after all. I can practice Druidry and even join the AODA and call myself whatever I want. Maybe I would be the most compfortable thinking of myself as a Pagan who practices Druidry, or something like that. Or maybe thinking of it in terms of “Revival Druid” instead of just “Druid” would seem less ludicrous and more intellectually honest. Semantic niceties aside, the way I label myself and the way I construct my own identity is really important to me.
Third, Revival Druidry has a lot of New Age ideas built in, and I am suspicious of New Ageism. I don’t think I really believe in “magick,” or feel like it is an important or even desired part of my spiritual life. I don’t believe in auras or moving energy around at will. I think a lot of that stuff is kind of flaky gobbledygook, and by entering a movement full of that kind of thing, I risk being associated with it or being seen myself as a New Ager, or alternately getting frustrated and fed up with what I see as flaky, non-valid spiritual beliefs and practices. Nevertheless, this is not a concern that is unique to Revival Druidry, but is one that I will face everywhere in the Neo-Pagan world. Perhaps if I was content to be a hardcore Reconstructionist, or was happy to act and practice in total solitude, I wouldn’t have to worry about it. But I am not and I don’t necessarily. So as long as I think of myself in terms of paganism, New Age is always going to be on the radar, whether I am involved with Revival Druidry or not.
Fourth, the big one, is that athough it may be the perfect box for me, it’s still a box. This is really my problem, not Druidry’s problem, but the chances of me pushing myself towards whatever passes for Orthodoxy in Revival Druid circles despite my contrary beliefs, intuitions, and desired practices, is really high. Orthodoxy is basically bred into me–I grew up Mormon after all, and it is really hard to root out that kind of thinking, especially when it is more of a knee-jerk inclination anyway. I naturally lean towards obsessive orthodoxy in whatever I do, regardless of whether it actually makesme happy or bears any kind of fruit in my life. But this is going to be a problem wherever I go, no matter what direction I decide on, probably even if I make up my own spiritual direction whole-cloth.
So, what does all of this mean? Honestly, I think my reasons to practice Revival druidry outweigh my reasons not to. And when it comes down to brass tacks, Druidry is something that has attracted me for a long time. I have hesitated before, but never because I thought I might be unsatisfied with Druidry. I either felt held back because of a hesitation to move in any spiritual direction without some kind of mystical catalyst to hang it all on, or I have held back because I thought I might need to set Druidry aside in favor of some other Orthodoxy. And now both of those reasons have evaporated: I have had a decidedly pagan mystical encounter with the gods, and I have recognized that Revival Druidry will fit almost any spiritual direction I have a reaosnable chance of ultimately settling down on, assuming I can keep my Orthodoxy reflex in check. In fact, practicing Revival Druidry may wind up being the perfect cure for said reflex, assuming I don’t wind up jerking my knee towards orthodoxy in Druidry itself.
I’ve considered the AODA as well… I have a lot of respect for JMG, we have something of a history of personal correspondence, and some of
my
favorite
bloggers
are
members. (yes, that’s five!)
That so many thoughtful, intelligent and articulate spiritual writers have been drawn to this Order says something to me… and since I’ve recently decided not to renew my ADF membership, this might be an opportune time to do look further into it.
There’s nothing wrong with ADF – I still have a lot of respect for the group and the work we/they have done and are doing, but I just feel that it’s time to turn that particular wheel… plus, my Druid aspect is really more oriented to the squishy-nature-mysticism side of things, and that doesn’t get a lot of play in ADF in my experience.
WordPress mangled my last link above – it should point to http://thearchdruidreport.blogspot.com.
I’d like to add that I still maintain my associate membership in OBOD as well (Isaac Bonewits once recommended that all Druids belong to at least three different Orders, to get a better feel for the breadth of the movement :). One of the biggest reasons for this is that I love the fact that they have an established liturgy (with ordinaries and propers, even!), which gives some of that feeling of solidity that you’ve been talking about – but the liturgy can be modified (or dispensed with, depending on the mood of the practitioner or the Grove) which might be helpful in your non-box quest. I understand AODA’s reason for having members “roll their own” when it comes to ritual, but I do admit that I like (need?) the resonance of ritual words and actions with a history outside myself.
I am currently under a self-imposed limitation not to do any analytical or introspective writing. You’re making it very difficult lately :).
I think it would be very difficult to be an orthodox revival druid, because there isn’t really an orthodoxy. JMG’s two “handbooks” for AODA practice are useful and helpful documents, but they are deliberately kind of slim and need to be fleshed out by the practitioner. Any questions like “is this the right way to do it?” are mostly answered with “does it seem right to you?” I haven’t seen OBOD’s training materials, but the OBODies I know seem to run along similar lines – there’s a base to build on, but what you build is up to you.
On the subject of magic – as a polytheist, a large proportion of the population already thinks of you as participating in flaky gobbledygook, so there’s no getting away from that, even if you told the world that you believe in Dionysus and Aphrodite but not magic (though honestly I don’t see how that’s Reconstructionist at all, considering what the ancients got up to.) It might be a perfectly valid path for you, but it doesn’t get you off the “new-age flake” hook with the larger culture. Most Pagans of my personal acquantaince see “new-age” as a perjorative term, but that doesn’t change the fact that we all get lumped in together no matter what.
I agree with your reservations about JM Greer. I think he’s our biggest asset and our biggest liability. What if something happened to him? would the order continue? He’s wonderful for the order, but he’s too much the heart of it, as well.
I want to say a whole lot more but can’t right now. Maybe sometime next month…
Oh, and thank you for the compliment, Executive Pagan! That’s some very fine company to be in.
Kullervo, This is a very interesting post and you demonstrate a lot of insight into your own needs and desires when it comes to choosing a spiritual path. 🙂
As a member (sort of) of AODA, I do have to say that some of the concerns you list are spot on. I for one was not prepared for the amount of “JMG fandom” that I began to run across in the AODA public forum on Yahoo. As I moved through the process of learning to stand on my own two feet, there were times when I was accused of picking fights merely for stating disagreements with members of the Grand Grove. Rather unpleasant. As of right now, I barely have any contact with anyone in the AODA community (except fellow bloggers–Erik, I love and completely agree with your list, and thanks for including me on it!). It is a weird community to navigate online, since there are plenty of members who don’t participate on the forum, and some non-members who do. What exactly does AODA membership consist of, then, other than paying a small membership fee and going on your way? I’m still figuring out this question, but there’s no doubt that people who don’t actively participate in the forum and communicate regularly with Grand Grove members are unlikely to have much role in shaping the community’s future growth.
All that said, a lot of what you say about what you’re looking for–a spiritual path that ties together meditation, ecology, poetry, ritual, music, polytheism, divination, etc., and gives a structure or formal practice to guide all these things–reminds me very strongly of myself and how I felt when I first came to Druidry. Suddenly, it was no longer a matter of trying to shear off everything that didn’t “fit” with orthodoxy or put my love of art and nature into “other boxes” only tangentially related to my spiritual life. The open-air organization of AODA Druidry really does allow for a great flexibility and a synthesis of all aspects of one’s life, especially for people drawn to the kinds of things you’ve listed as being important to you. My own experience has been almost like planting a spiritual seed in one of those little peat pots. The “pot” provided structure and protection when I first began to explore and put out leaves, but as I grow and evolve in my spirituality I find the pot dissolving and decomposing into the surrounding earth into which I’ve been firmly planted, giving my roots plenty of room. 🙂 You might find the same thing happening, if you do decide to join AODA and pursue that work. By the time you have outgrown the “box,” you may discover it’s flimsy and easy to expand beyond….
Well, let’s not understate the level of my own JMG fandom. I think he’s pretty fantastic. I just recognize the limitations and pitfalls when an organization is too centered (structurally and/or psychologically) around one person.
I’ve been digging around in AODA (which holds some attraction to me too) and I give JMG a lot of credit for writing the following:
“… archeologists and historians were able to prove conclusively that the Druidry of the Revival was a modern spiritual movement, not an ancient one.”
I have nothing against creating a new tradition—akin to Freemasonry in the Grove—as long as you’re honest about that fabricated origin. I’ve had enough of new institutions claiming ancient origins for one lifetime. Fool me once…
The more I read your posts, and the more that I read through the hellenismos.us message board you used to frequent, the more I realize that:
Eclecticism
Reconstruction
are overly-maligned, ill-defined words that shouldn’t have any importance for you right now. Maybe they shouldn’t have importance for anyone.
I considered adding “Neopagan” to this list, but maybe you’ve warmed up to this one?
Also, man you hate LARPing don’t you 🙂
I don’t hate LARPing, actually, but I don’t want to LARP as my religion. I think that borders on pathetic.